To begin, I take three busses to work every morning. I use the load card because it gives you a significant discount and can just be easier. I've always loaded it online before sleeping and woken up to there being money on my card, but two days ago I put $30 on my presto in the morning. Knowing this, I happily got on the bus yesterday morning expecting to see my significant amount left on my card. But it got rejected. Insufficient funds... What? Excuse me, no. I have $32.11?! Just kidding. It didn't load. Apparently internet purchase on it is super unreliable according to my regular bus driver. So she let me on because she's the best and knows I pay for it regularly. So last night I put another ten dollars on it because I figured I didn't put in the right card number (my card is unregistered) and just gave some random person $30 on their card. You're welcome, stranger. I'm a giver.
But anyway, my card didn't load. I checked online before the bus arrived so I didn't embarrass myself again. So I began walking, and the bus pulled up. So it idled as I crossed the road and it followed me, stopped and honked. My regular bus driver (seriously love her) yells "get your bum on this bus right now!" And then asked "you loaded online again didn't you" so I said yes, I was silly. She then said she is my bus mama and will take care of me and does not want me walking in the mornings.
Needless to say, I won't load my card online anymore. I promise, bus mama.
I'm going to buy her a tims card and give it to her tomorrow because I think she deserves it.
Also, I woke up at 4am today reluctantly and thanks to my medication which causes some trouble sleeping. But, I didn't have anxiety. I had a bit but I was able to brush it away! So that's a step.
But then my cats came and cuddled with me so it was worth it to be up the extra hour. Pan snuggled right into my chest and I rested my chin on him ever so slightly. It was the cutest thing and just an overall wonderful start to my day.
I really need to hold on to this start when I start to get stressed at work. I find it important to not focus on the bad things but to remember all the small things that made a bit of difference. Sometimes they get ignored. Honestly, I ignore them a lot. Because anxiety and pessimism.
I got asked out on a date last night by a boy who I met on the weekend. I'm feeling nervous about it and not sure I really should/am ready. I guess it doesn't hurt to try.
Anyway, I am on my bus and as it is so early in the morning I have nothing much else to report on other than my bus is on a detoured route which makes me nervous but not letting it consume me.
Until the morrow.
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