Assessment day

I'm going for my mental health assessment today. It's not like I've not done this before, I've done it three times already in the past year. But there's something different about this one in a way. I think it feels more real in a way. It's like 'I know I'm severely depressed. I know I'm really unhealthy and I'm taking this test to get approved for a treatment program that is through the hospital.' I mean, the hospital. It's probably just that I associate the hospital as something scary and severe, but even still. I'm not just going to a school counsellor once every month and a half (yeah. Our wellness centre at school was awful BECAUSE SO MANY STUDENTS GET ANXIETY OR PHASES OF DEPRESSION BECAUSE OF HOW HARD IT REALLY IS AND ALL THE PRESSURE AND MENTAL HEALTH IS BARELY A PRIORITY AT THIS POINT AND SO OUR RESOURCES IN UNIVERSITIES KIND OF SUCK) but yeah. I'm proud of myself for doing this. I reached out for help which is how a Leighanna ended up finding this for me. I'm very thankful for my friends. 

Also, in other news, I watched the fault in our stars last night. I think they translated it really well and did a good job. I still found Gus a bit of an unbelievable character but I like how the actor portrayed him. It was well done. 

I am also spending the weekend at my co-workers which I'm excited/nervous for. I've done the thing where I book up all my weekends again. I need some me time. Shoot. 

I'm so tired I'm struggling to stay awake.