What a whirlwind the past week has been...
To start, I applied for a job two weeks ago in my company but it would mean no longer being a temp and on contract. It still restricts me from gaining benefits, but I'm pretty sure there will be an increase in pay. It will be weird at first, because I am now accustomed to a weekly income and with being on salary it will be bi-weekly. But, I get an hour long lunch! Which isn't super exciting because I have no car to go anywhere and there isn't anything within walking distance, but working in service we never take our lunch (Which yes, is illegal) because of how busy we are. I probably could have taken my lunch, but working as a temp puts a lot of pressure on you especially if you're hoping to get hired on. So, by taking a lunch I thought I would be seen as the weaker link and not be worth hiring. See the dilemma?
I was supposed to find out about whether or not I got the job on Friday, but I didn't. However, I already know the results of my interview because of a secret source. Because I'm not supposed to really know, I'm not going to post the results of my applying until I legitimately hear from the people employing.
This past week though has been delightful. I've been really happy and I'm incredibly thankful for that. I think the medication was a good decision, I've noticed a big difference in how my anxiety is triggering during situations which is awesome. The smallest thing no longer spirals me into a pit of worry and upset. Thank you serotonin neutralizing medication! Woo!
I went shopping yesterday with Leigh and truthfully left a fairly large dent in my wallet which I probably can't really afford, but I'm not having remorse. Most of it was essentials, like new bras and underwear. A part of my Halloween costume, and then I treated myself to a dress and boots that I really liked. Leigh also convinced me to go to a party with her in one of the university towns which was being held and attended by a group of people in high school I knew that I didn't think particuraly meshed well with my personality, and also didn't like me. However, I had a blast and apparently had some misconceptions of their feelings on me. I think that's what really caused all the anxiety towards them the past couple years, was just believing they didn't really like me as a person and so I began to convince myself that I also didn't enjoy their company. Although I don't appreciate some of their humour because I'm a prude, for the most part they are a pretty funny and also extremely nice group of people. They were extremely welcoming to me, which is something I appreciate because I think it's incredibly rude when people are exclusive at parties. Parties are for socialization, why are some people so clichey? It's the worst. But anyway, it was fun. I got called Lorde all night because I allegedly look like her? It's apparently because I have curly hair, dark eyebrows and was also wearing dark lipstick. Which frankly, is poor logic, but whatever. Also a compliment because I personally think she is beautiful. I was extremely hesitant to go in the first place, but I'm glad Leigh coaxed me into going. I had a good night.
I am extremely tired from the good night, but I think it was worth it.
Some things to be appreciative for are the fact that we have internet again!! After months of going without, it's nice to have it back. It's a bit slow, and watching youtube videos is extremely painful because of the buffering and loading time, but I'm so thankful to even have it. It's worth the wait.
Also, bus mama was absent last week and also on Wednesday. I was worried they may have switched her route but she was back on Thursday and Friday and she told me she would see me next week. I assume she was just sick. Glad she's better, she really makes my mornings from Wednesday - Friday because of how kind she is.
I also have great family and friends. I can't stress that enough. They are beyond what I think I deserve, and they are truly a blessing. They are what makes life beautiful and worth living for.
Finally, we are having spaghetti and meatballs for dinner. I could literally eat pasta every single night, and I know this because I tested this hypothesis at school, and not get sick of it. I love pasta. I love it. It's probably my favourite food. So, that is a nice start to the week (Or end to the week, whichever you see Sunday as)
Anyway, I'm going to go have some family time and curl up with my blanket and pillow and watch television.
Happy days.
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