Today was a weirdly good day.
As it was my second day of the new job, I was a bit more familiar. I think now it's really just going to be about repeat, repeat, repeat until I know 100% what I'm doing. I'm already a million times happier than I was working. So, that's nice. Seriously, the atmosphere is just so much better. The only thing that kind of made today not so great was the rain and cold. It's okay though! It happens, and at least there isn't snow yet, right?!
Also I am learning to do some driving tomorrow... that's exciting/nervous and will be a lot easier in general when I can finally move the trucks.
A really wonderful part of my day was that I got to see SIERRA! She was dropping her friend off at the airport and she came and visited me. We grabbed some Tim Horton's and just sat and chatted for an hour. I love her very much, I'm so thankful she is my friend.
Big news for her which I'm so proud of her for is that she got a job she recently interviewed for! I'm not too surprised because from the way she described it, she rocked the interview. Tomorrow is also her birthday, and that's great. I hope it's wonderful. Ahh I'm just so happy for her!!
I'm so tired though!! The day feels so long and it's kind of sad that I lose a lot of my evening. I don't know what to do right now because I keep thinking I have to go to bed at 8pm since I wake up at 4:30, but I don't anymore! I've been waking up at like 6:30, so I can go to bed a lot later. So in a way, I don't lose my evening it just feels like it. It's just going to take some adjusting, like everything does.
Sierra and I discussed Richard today. I told her how I've been missing him lately and how I feel bad about that. She said it's normal, she said not to worry. She said I'm allowed to miss him. And I am, I really loved Richard. I still probably love Richard, even though a lot of days my anger buries the feelings and replaces the warmth of love to the cool bitterness. A part of me is still hopeful he loves me and will fight for us. But I know he won't because that requires more effort than he's willing to give. I think I deserve more than that.
I'm angry and sad about the whole situation... and I feel like I think and talk about it too much. But Richard was a huge part of my life, so I think it's only natural the break up and heartbreak is also.
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