Richard deleted me off steam tonight.

I know it's probably because I have shitty internet and it probably signs me in and out continuously and makes me look either like I'm doing it on purpose or it's probably just annoying to see. But it still sucked... I told him the other day he could delete me so I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

All I want to do is to leave him a message telling him that I hope we can be friends and that I'm so okay with everything but I also don't want to be that ex-girlfriend who messages him all the time. You know? I just want him in my life, I would be so okay with just being friends. But a more rational part of my mind knows that that can't happen yet. We need time to heal. But I just want to talk to him, I miss him. I just hate being strangers.