He told me that he could see himself with me forever, but he feels someone his age should have dated more than three people. We also discussed being married for thirty plus years, he's afraid of not being in love with the person the whole time and getting sick of them. I said I personally think that happens, that marriage is bumpy. Which is so obvious. Nobody advertises it as easy, you know??
I think his parents have moulded him so drastically there, mostly his father. I think he sees his mom completely doting over his father and his father is just so miserable.
My parents are unhappy at times, and we struggle with a lot of things but I think my parents do love each other still. I catch it in moments. We aren't perfect but, I think ultimately my family feels lucky to have each other.
It's sort of sad to realize that J thinks I am someone he can live with forever, but is to scared to actually do it. He struggles so hard to fit into a normalcy because he feels so different from his family, at least in my opinion, that it impedes him from living life how he wants to. He's living it like he thinks he should.
He's very lost, and I feel very bad for him.
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