I really want J to tell his family about me. It actually makes me really sad that they don't, and that he doesn't seem to want to. Most of the time I can push it away, but I am getting tired of being this person... I mentioned to him a 'close call' about his brother finding out about us and he told me I should have said *blank* to avoid it.
A ton of emotions and ideas run through my head about this. Is he embarrassed? Ashamed? Is he using me? Does he not actually like me? Is he going to throw me away at the end of the summer?
Why am I a secret? Is it just too soon for him? It's only been two months.
I don't know.... I'm giving a cut off date of April. If they still don't know about me, I'm going to end it.
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